To Go To School or Not

I am currently torn between pursuing my professional advancement and family. Schooling requires resources and time which I could hardly keep up. This makes me pretty guilty since I could not make up to the lost time I have to give to my kid and to the business we recently initiated among other important reasons.

But, I am halfway done with my second masteral degree and I see it more wasted if this wont be pursued until it is completed, needless to say, the self-recognition for earning two degrees.

Goodness! I really have to make up my mind. Which one is more compelling to heed, Recognition or Family?

I Am Definitely Pissed

Tired, stressed, restless. These are the very words that consume me. I wish to just disappear in a snap.

I wish I can find a fit-all formula to make ill things and persons disappear. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

The Irresponsible Administrator

We were supposed to receive our pay today however since I just recently did my grades and other requirements, I just had my regular clearance all done just this afternoon. I am actually on time with my clearance. Problem is one of the signatories had attended his kid's graduation. I have no objection on this, however, this action had put on hold all the unsigned clearances. This means, we won't be receiving our pay on time. We must wait for four days since Monday is a holiday.

Goodness! What will happen to those who are just relying on their pay. I am only relieved that I have a little resource to use until the pay day.

I wish they had the common sense and justice to put someone as an OIC since this administrator has a planned leave. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Poor Teachers! Overworked, paid delayed!

David Pomeranz is My Date! Hurray!

I joined the blog contest of Bariles on David Pomeranz since he will be holding a concert on Feb. 14. I submitted my entry a day before the deadline and I was told that a number of very good writers had submitted too. I didn't really expect much since my story was somehow a story only heard in a Love Segment of AM station.Hahahhaha!!!!

But, when Bariles, texted me this late afternoon in between my classes that the result was finally released, I simply asked my sister, Tammy, to check but not at all expecting.

When we got home, we were both adamant to read the complete story. And, guess what? My entry was in the top 5. It means, I am one of the big winners. Yeeeeeeeeeepeeeeeeey! I couldn't contain my joy because we get to have 2 VIP tickets instead of 1 as originally announced, and we had 1000.00 worth of gift certificate each from this glamorous resto in the city, Grab a Crab. I am thinking of using my gift certificates to have my entire family in that place. With that, I get to hear beautiful songs of my icon, David Pomeranz, and dine with loved ones.

To all the writers, judges, sponsors, KUDOS!See you all there. Hurraaaaaay!!!

Wishful Thinking . . .

Do you ever wish that you are just on a beach, just savoring the breeze and tranquility of the sea? I always do that, just to make my restless head slow down, and appreciate what life has brought me.

Amidst our busy days, we seem to ignore what really matters to us, family and life. When I was younger, I only wish to become a teacher, mother and wife. Now, that I am all that, I have this nasty habit of pushing myself to achieving and acquiring more at the expense of who are really important. Then, I began forgetting my self again, depriving me of sleep, fun, and life. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk!

For what do we really live for anyway?

Raining Again!

The day is all gloomy here as I traveled to Marbel for my masteral school. Our teacher was out, but requirements are still up. Kapagod buhay estudyante.Hahahahhah!

But as the heaven is filled with rain, I feel so numb. Hahahhahah! Sisihin ba ang weather. Just too many things to handle but I trust that these all shall pass.

Until then.

Angels AMong Friends

My co-administrators in my old school! I miss their wisdom and warm friendship!

My childhood buddies! Been friends since grade 1
(imagine, our endurance and tolerance of one another Hahahhaha)

My other two sisters on one morning jog!

My new working family! More wacky!

My boss and buddy since college days!

Do you believe in angels? I am not a conservative Catholic but I always believe that Good Samaritans are just around us.

When you hold titles, money and power, false friends are abound but your true friends are just watching on the backdrop, happier of what you have achieved. But, you cant really test true nature of relationships until you see them through hard times, and that is what I have recently found out.

I was all introvert before with my whole world revolving only around my family and work but separation had kicked me hard and difficult. So, instead of wallowing in self-pity and hatred, I began to love myself more, and reach out to others. I am quite amazed, how through blogging and other net media, I had met great friends who had shown their sympathy and support even if I am a stranger to them, old friends who are still there, cheering me up even if I keep on repeating the same lines of sentiments, hahahahaha, my biological family, who in spite of my insanity and stubbornness, still choose to support my decision whatever is the consequence. All these people are my good Samaritans, angels in disguise (I wont say, devils too as it will spoil the drama.hahahahah).

Thank you my fellow-blogger friends, old and new friends. The heaven will be overcrowded with your presence. Hahahhahah!

Happiness Money Cant Really Buy

Sometime in April, I made this post of listing reasons why life is still beautiful in spite of our ups and downs. I have achieved various honors and recognitions academically and professionally, but nothing can really compare and compensate the joy that I had felt from simple life's pleasures that I often ignore. So I want to update my list, as I have new blessings to be happy about even after separation.

So, here is my updated list of simple-but-overwhelming-reasons why I have to continue moving on and loving life and people around me:

1. smell the sweet aroma of coffee and freshly cut grass;
2. hear the chuckles of a tickled baby, and now my new nephew Ziggy;
3. see my baby pictures with old friends;
4. hear the outburst laughters of my son and nephew whenever I bring them ice cream;
5. read love letters of my ex's;
6. exchange greetings with my officemates, janitors and the guards;
7. exchange text messages with old friends;
8. jog with my sister in early mornings;
9. play badminton in the late afternoon with my bestfriend;
10. reach the mountain tops after stiff trails;
11. groove on the dance floor with childhood buddies;
12. wonder at the sunset on a boulevard;
13. watch the light rain trickle down and touch the ground;
14. hear old songs of yesteryears;
15. sing with my sisters with our magic microphone and beat the tune with less disgrace possible, Waaaaaaaaaaah!
16. split my food with street kids;
17. teach my students of IT, programming and BLOGGING;
18. share meals with close office mates;
19. see your best friend wed;
20. enjoy sumptuous Chinese wanton and siomai with my sister and mom;
21. watch movies with my son and other loved ones;
22. buy my fave shoes and bags, and blouses and . .. . . (the list can go on when it comes to shopping)
23. pose my widest smile on a camera flick at any occasion at any time;
24. eat my fave ice candy flavor;
25. devour chocolates, yum, yum!
26. chat with old and new friends;
27. go to a saloon to get some pamperings;
28. go mountain climbing with friends;
29. stand on a mountain peak we have just conquered and see the clear panorama;
30. get blog comments of praises and encouragements from blogger-friends;
31. cry and laugh with my Korean teleserye cd's, (Mariz - we are one on this!)
32. and more .. . . .

Wow, I am truly blessed as I can list more. I have to remind myself of all these pleasures as I battle my depression over a failed marriage. Indeed, successful careers or academic recognitions or society status is not enough to bring true happiness.

So, I am challenging my fellow friend-bloggers,
what are your reasons for joy?

Try to make a list of your life's simple pleasures. You will be truly amazed of what you can find out from these simplicity but grandness of life. I dare you. . .

Mending a Broken Heart? Go to a Saloon!

Being separated and working as single mom all consumes and drains me and so as I battle my depression and work for my peace of mind. . . readings and shoppings do help a lot. . . but I also discovered something, I just hit the road and went straight to my fave saloon and get my hair done, some pedicure, and facial treatment. VOILA ! I feel so refreshed and revitalized, as if, I can just conquer every man I will meet, eeeeeeeeeeerrrrrr! Hahahhahahah!

So, even if my pocket was all drained, I am quite happy with what I have done today!!! At least, being broken - hearted means, becoming more beautiful, inside and out! Aja Rosilie!

Can Break Ups Really Break You Down?

I only had two serious romantic relationships and bad for me, that I ended up with broken heart and soul (murag si Kris Aquino) but I only mopped for few days, picked up myself and just walked on. . . I may have my wishes to turn back the time but then, I would never really grow as mature as I am now, if I had not gone through failures, may it be in a romantic level or not. Now, I could only pray for continued courage and wisdom to still love life and people around me, especially my son.

I would always love this song, "I Will Survive." It reminds me that breaking up cannot and will not make me break down. I wont allow that at all!!!!! I still believe that sunshine is always there after a heavy rain. . .So, to all who just losed their loved ones, go cry a lot, eventually accept the truth, then move on and when you see the person who broke your heart, (go kick his ass para lang sa mga bitter huh!), show your biggest smile and say, THANK YOU for breaking up with me, my life is more beautiful without you!!! Go Girls!!!!

My Happy Birthday

I celebrated after seven years my birthday alone with my biological family and I must say that in spite of the absence of my friends (they were away for some valid reasons), I was quite happy and satisfied. Why? Even if my friends were not around, they greeted and wished me well, even those who I least expected.

****My birthday cake with Yuri and nephew, JP**

My son had chosen me a birthday cake, (which half of it, was all consumed by him =) ). And my siblings prepared their fave food as gift to me. I also had a big chocolate bar too to consume.

Being 31 years old seems all ok and fine. . . You would realize more that nothing really matters most than having your family and friends around (online and offline!). So, I thank the Lord for every person who had touched my life with their presence and for all the blessings big or small that I receive everyday!!!!

Oh Geez!!! Im Turning 31 Years Old!

Orkut Graphics
My birthday this June is soon to come and I just really dread it. Being 30's has its good points also. My reasons:

1. I am quite confident of myself and what I can do compared to a decade ago.
2. My views are respected by others even if they are wild and outer-space type.
3. I am settled with my job and family (though applying for a new job is really harder at 30's).
4. I am more to taking care of myself, fitness and all, and
5. I get wiser and more beautiful....... (10 years ago, I could cry over fat bellies and pimples!!! and just worry what others may say, now, to heck with them.)

So, Thank God, I am 31 years old, healthy, beautiful, sexier inside out and loving life more!!!

Blog Template Upgrade - What An Irritating Experience

I wanted to upgrade my blog template to 3-column design, but as I did the change, I somehow, lost the elements and the links I have labored and endured for at least a month. This really pissed me off. . .

It is only relieving, that, I was able to backtrack the changes I made and preserve my old template and its elements. But, this doesnt solve yet my problem. So, may I know from my fellow bloggers and blog experts, if there is a way to upgrade the template design without losing the elements I have created?

Cant wait to hear your suggestions. Thanx a lot.

Life's Simple Pleasures

Sometimes we are too busy chasing our dreams, looking for the the love of our life, that we tend to ignore little things we can also appreciate.

I would always find wonder and warmth whenever I:

1. smell the sweet aroma of coffee and freshly cut grass;
2. hear the chuckles of a tickled baby;
3. see my baby pictures with old friends;
4. hear the outburst laughters of my son and nephew whenever I bring them ice cream;
5. read love letters of my ex's;
6. exchange greetings with my officemates, janitors and the guards;
7. exchange text messages with old friends;
8. jog with my sister in early mornings;
9. play badminton in the late afternoon with my bestfriend;
10. reach the mountain tops after stiff trails;
11. groove on the dance floor with childhood buddies;
12. wonder at the sunset on a boulevard;
13. watch the light rain trickle down and touch the ground;
14. hear old songs of yesteryears;
15. sing with my sisters with our magic microphone and beat the tune with less disgrace possible; 16. split my food with street kids;
17. teach with my students;
18. share meals with close office mates;

19. and just blog about other little things I should be happy about. . . . . .

We really dont have to have riches of the world, or all the academic titles famous schools could offer, or trophy partner to show off . . . . Happiness can still be found from simple life's essence that we oftentimes ignore. . .

True Love

When does exactly love becames its real name and not something else? Is it defined by giving your whole life to the person you claim you love or by also respecting your very own self in the process. When does it become a reason for others to abuse and betray you? I only know that love is beautiful in spite of life's struggles, in spite of injustices, that love can still be shared even if your very own loved ones hurt you. But when does self-love begin? I must say self-respect must start first within so others will treat you with that utmost respect, then perhaps real love can persist.

Unconditional Love

When do we exactly say that love is true and unconditional? I must say, we can see this in the perspective of a mother to her child.

It is when she has to endure the weight, and other physiological and emotional changes while carrying her child in her wom, the loving strokes she gave on her belly and unceasing prayers and wishes that may her child grow healthy and beautifully.

It is when a mother has to wake up in wee hours in the morning to feed, to pacify, to carry her baby close to her bossom in spite of the deprived sleep.

It is when the mother has to rush hurriedly to her ailing son and wish that she would rather feel the pain for her son.

It is when she has to work of various kinds just to support the family, to support her child until he can stand on his feet.

Her love and care is unceasing and unconditional that sometimes she forgets her very own needs, her very own self. So whenever I ask myself, did I really truly render love to my family or to my loved ones, I feel short with my answers. Like the Bible says, Love has no bounds, I could only wish that kind of love can be given to me and be reciprocated. . . . .

I salute all the mothers in the world who have given much in spite of how little they have.